I was trying to think of something clever for the title - but honestly, I'm just all witted out at the moment. I just spoke with Dr. Maja and she confirmed her suspicions that I have a highly invasive type of lobular cancer - about 10% of breast cancer patients experience this type of tumor, which is metastatic (the type that spreads to other parts of the body and other organs). The biggest concern is whether the cancer has already spread elsewhere - although we didn't see anything initially in the lymph nodes, obviously more tests will be done.
First of all, though, they are going to perform surgery - probably on Friday, and I'll stay in the hospital for 3 days down in Macedonia at that time. (Thank God for Kindle Unlimited!) There will be chemo in my near future, and this is something I'll always have to be diligent about watching - because it could (and may) turn up anywhere.
My doctor is highly optimistic - but let's be honest, she's ALWAYS optimistic even when it's not warranted - so it's kind of hard to gauge. I'm TRULY grateful she called me and didn't make me take a half day off to drive down there just to hear the news.
I wish I had witty commentary or some earth shattering epiphany about life to share with you today. But I don't. Just news. I'm back in that numb/disbelief stage - not really feeling anything but a bit shell shocked - and definitely not in the mood for conversation tonight. So I'm going to make some hot cocoa, grab my book and go to bed.
First of all, though, they are going to perform surgery - probably on Friday, and I'll stay in the hospital for 3 days down in Macedonia at that time. (Thank God for Kindle Unlimited!) There will be chemo in my near future, and this is something I'll always have to be diligent about watching - because it could (and may) turn up anywhere.
My doctor is highly optimistic - but let's be honest, she's ALWAYS optimistic even when it's not warranted - so it's kind of hard to gauge. I'm TRULY grateful she called me and didn't make me take a half day off to drive down there just to hear the news.
I wish I had witty commentary or some earth shattering epiphany about life to share with you today. But I don't. Just news. I'm back in that numb/disbelief stage - not really feeling anything but a bit shell shocked - and definitely not in the mood for conversation tonight. So I'm going to make some hot cocoa, grab my book and go to bed.
Nikki dear please know that you are in my thoughts. Wishing I could be there to hold your hand through all of this. I love you always. Stay strong and know that everyone is sending you healing vibes. Always your sister, Tracy
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ReplyDeleteKnikki, I'm very unsure of myself and I dont know what to say to you but your in my thoughts and my prayers 🙏
ReplyDeleteYour entries are so raw and real. I thank you for being so truthful. I cannot begin to imagine the mental, physical and emotional challenges you are facing every day - heck, every hour - but please know that I am all the way over here in Ohio praying for you, thinking of you, and thanking God I met you! I know Colton loves you too, he talks about going back to Germany just about every day!! Your spirit is amazing and strong. You’ve got this, girl!
ReplyDeleteKnikki darling, as I have said before, there are no words. If you would like me to be with you for awhile, just call and I will be there. I have some sacred items from our beloved Fr. Dom that have got me through the darkest days
Delete.. just say the word and I will send them on to you, they carry hope and healing. Love you my friend, Margaret. Ireland.
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